So lately,

I've been a little down, this whole week I've been putting on smiles. Some were real others weren't. I have a few people who help me out, per se Kathy, Martin, etc. Times are rough, love sucks and so does everything else. I'm waiting to go to Six Flags. For the record I've never been to Six Flags, and my dad got me mad and worked up. I'm so excited that I won't let anything get in my way. My cousin Josh is also excited, but we're stuck home. My dad says he can get us there before 12, and like I always say, "That's what she said."

Since Friday I've been daydreaming and crying. Crying because of all the sad music that reminds me of him. And I've been dreaming of seeing him again. I can't live a life when I'm always miserable. I told you, I'm a good actress. I will keep this blog short, I have nothing else to say. Because I can't do this type of life anymore.

No I don't mean suicide, I just need to figure out another solution to get out of this mess I'm in. I dug a hole wayy too deep in the ground and I can't keep out. I'm stuck at another fork in the road. My life isn't a fairytale. Only I wish it was.